Early in the AM and the house is still quiet as I walk toward the darkness of the kitchen from it being a rainy Monday morning I can see the shadows of the dishes in the sink.
As my vision pans out I see more mess on the kitchen table and things that I’m sure what was suppose to be in the trash on the floor next to the can as it was a missed thrown shot & never picked up last night.
As I stand there I take a deep breath. I can either start my day upset and angry and make my day equal with the weather that is happening outside or I can take a deep breath and pick up the trash and clear the kitchen and have a talk with my children when they get up.
Today I pick to do small things with love.(LOTS OF LOVE) No matter how much I want to get upset what good will it at this moment.
As I finish clearing the kitchen & put the bucket so it will catch the rain that will fall from the hole that we have in the ceiling that our Landlord has yet to fix since we let him know months ago. I look about and how things seem to be falling apart in this house but again there is nothing we can do at the moment and I stop and say thank you Lord for giving us a roof over our head even in this situation because it could be worse so much worse.
I instead did a bit of sweeping and more tidying up and as I turn my youngest is up asking for some toast to eat. With the sweetest of smiles which makes me thankful and humble because I remember this time 4 yrs ago we had to go to the NICU to see that sweet face. Again my heart is humbled & I have another reason to be thankful.
As I go to get the toaster I see one of the bills that are about to be due, which makes me go to my table to look at my notebook where I write down what the monthly bills. Debt looming about. Wondering how will we be able to do it all. Feeling myself about to enter the gloom and start a pity party but then I paused. Took a deep breath and prayed and said Lord I am thankful for what you give us.
What I have learned over the years is even on the cloudiest of days there is a reason to be thankful. Although I wish some things would be different I am thankful for what I did have. I will ask for grace today and pray for peace and put my headphones on and dance.