I always have loved Mother Teresa even before she became a saint. I remember hearing about her and when I saw her little tiny fragile self I must say I almost felt bad she was in her situation but to hear all she did always made me be in awe of her and the happiness that seems to ooze out of her was just so beautiful. Looking at her just makes you happy and want to hug her.
I’ve learned many lessons from her without even knowing that she had any connection. Like when I’ve been in a need I pray the Memorare and guess who would always pray it yup St. Mother Teresa.
I learned that even when we think we are in periods of darkness that is the time we shine the most. I must say I did laugh because I though well right now I must be so bright that I’ll need shades.
I’ve learned that doing the things we think are little everyday things the attitude we do them is really a gift to someone even when we don’t think it so.
As I clean our home and feel like it’s unappreciated as there is hardly ever a thank you givenI have to stop and remember how we must do all things even the smallest of things with love. Me getting upset because I don’t get help or a thank you wouldn’t make anything better. I need to just use that for moments of reflection and in whatever I do, do it with the love I have for each person that I am doing it for. THAT is a hard really take but I’m slowly getting it (mind you yes V E R Y slowly but I’m coming along)
The evil one feeds off our doubts and that’s when we can get even more darkness. I have seen myself fall into the trap of questioning what is my purpose. What is my calling. When I stop and listen I hear the answer. THIS is my calling motherhood.
I always sit back and can say honestly if someone would have told 22 year old me that I would love being a SAHM I would say they were lying. That I would have more then one child I would have laughed. Now it’s the reason why I breathe it’s my happiness even when my youngest makes puddles from the milk she just asked to drink and now I have to clean up.
No matter the worries and concerns I have because of finances that have had me awake throughout the night I will give it to our Lord. Bills and debt can take a toll and make one so tired because of it. Yet with it I have learned I know that giving ALL my energy to it wil lnot do anything. Instead I have to plan out and calmly focus on how things can be tackled one at a time. I may not have the answers but one small bite at a time it can be taken care of as best of our abilities.
I am working hard in trying to figure out the part of bringing in income although right now it may seem bleek I have faith and am working hard something will come about.
Thank you St. Teresa for being there showing me that even when we think our actions are too small to be noticed they are the ones that do the biggest impact. Help me to trust Jesus as you did.
As the next weeks are uncertain I trust all will be OK. I will conuntine to pray and work as hard as I can.
Jesus I trust in you.