As I helped my 10-year-old change the time left until we celebrate Christmas on our cute little-stuffed snowman I couldn’t help but gasp as it only has 12 days.
I must say this year has been extra tough and humbling but as I looked at my little girls my heart was full of gratitude as I was able to get gifts for each of my children because of our Lord’s grace and love. I am can not even say how humbled I am.
This year, to be honest, I have prayed more than I ever have prayed. It’s been a hard year. With worries and many tears but the only thing I did have that did not change but actually grew has been my faith.
I’ve actually asked the question to our Lord what is my purpose? Time and again I see my vocation really is motherhood and praying for my loved ones.
Many times I’ve thought Lord am I really enough and find myself on my knees with tears and prayers. I’ve seen his answers to me and my heart is humbled. The small whispers that carry his love and answers always seem to surprise me.
The answers we seek aren’t always what we expect but sooner than later we shall understand them. We have to learn to listen. It can be oh so hard indeed but we need that quiet time. Just to listen. When was the last time you just sat to listen?
My littlest asked me actually what did I want for Christmas and I looked at her and said I already have all I need right here. Seeing their little happy faces and hearing giggles is so amazing and beautiful to me. I just want them to be happy.
Although there is one thing I am trying my hardest to work on which is taking care of our debt. It would be amazing to be able to wake up and not have to worry about that. It would ease Hubby’s mind and we wouldn’t have to struggle so hard. It would cut so many chains and allow us to breathe easier.
That is my prayer for the new year. To be able to get enough clients, work to help ease that burden right now.
If you have an extra prayer I would love for you to help me pray so I’m able to get the work I am looking for.
Goals for the coming year that will have my prayers each day will be
- Get more VA clients
- Pay for the school’s tuition myself (so hubby has one less thing to worry)
- Hold prayer group in our home once a month
- Be able to do more for others in need (we have been so blessed with help this year my heart is so full and thankful )
If I could have one gift this year that I really think would be so helpful in doing another thing I love is getting a new camera and a GorillaPod to work on my photography once again, but those are things my little dream bubble that I just don’t wish to pop but know it’s just floating from reach.
Well that’s enough of my rambles for today. Thanks so much once more for allowing me to express my thoughts. As well as thank you for your kind words in your messages.
What is one thing you are hoping for this coming new year?