Your Prayers Will Be Heard & Answered

As I helped my 10-year-old change the time left until we celebrate Christmas on our cute little-stuffed snowman I couldn’t help but gasp as it only has 12 days.

I must say this year has been extra tough and humbling but as I looked at my little girls my heart was full of gratitude as I was able to get gifts for each of my children because of our Lord’s grace and love. I am can not even say how humbled I am.

This year, to be honest, I have prayed more than I ever have prayed. It’s been a hard year. With worries and many tears but the only thing I did have that did not change but actually grew has been my faith.

I’ve actually asked the question to our Lord what is my purpose? Time and again I see my vocation really is motherhood and praying for my loved ones.

Many times I’ve thought Lord am I really enough and find myself on my knees with tears and prayers.  I’ve seen his answers to me and my heart is humbled. The small whispers that carry his love and answers always seem to surprise me.

The answers we seek aren’t always what we expect but sooner than later we shall understand them. We have to learn to listen. It can be oh so hard indeed but we need that quiet time. Just to listen.  When was the last time you just sat to listen?

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My littlest asked me actually what did I want for Christmas and I looked at her and said I already have all I need right here. Seeing their little happy faces and hearing giggles is so amazing and beautiful to me. I just want them to be happy.

Although there is one thing I am trying my hardest to work on which is taking care of our debt. It would be amazing to be able to wake up and not have to worry about that. It would ease Hubby’s mind and we wouldn’t have to struggle so hard. It would cut so many chains and allow us to breathe easier.

That is my prayer for the new year. To be able to get enough clients, work to help ease that burden right now.

If you have an extra prayer I would love for you to  help me pray so I’m able to get the work I am looking for.

Goals for the coming year that will have my prayers each day will be

  • Get more VA clients
  • Pay for the school’s tuition myself (so hubby has one less thing to worry)
  • Hold prayer group in our home once a month
  • Be able to do more for others in need (we have been so blessed with help this year my heart is so full and thankful )

If I could have one gift this year that I really think would be so helpful in doing another thing I love is getting a new camera and a GorillaPod to work on my photography once again, but those are things my little dream bubble that I just don’t wish to pop but know it’s just floating from reach.

Well that’s enough of my rambles for today. Thanks so much once more for allowing me to express my thoughts. As well as thank you for your kind words in your messages.

 

What is one thing you are hoping for this coming new year?

 

Running for Advent

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As I was getting ready for bed  I got the urge that I should write this post. I was super sleep but as I have learned our Lord whispers and gives us gentle taps what we do it is up to us and so I thought I’d have to share, and so this is is what happened to me this past Sunday.

On the weekend Hubby will come home from work at a good enough time that he gets some rest and we are able to go to mass together as a family but I got a text from him that they had requested for him to work a bit extra but he actually didn’t come home till almost dawn which meant change of plans, meaning the kids and I would have to go to church by the parish that is in walking distance.

I usually get up at 5:30 am on Sunday because I watch the Mass that is played at that time so I can listen to the reading and gospel because well let’s face it at mass with the kids it can get interesting giving one’s full attention.

As I turned on TV and Mass started  I hear them say today is the  2nd Sunday of Advent and I thought to wait, what!?! It’s the 1st Sunday of Advent and for a minute I said perhaps I heard wrong? So I grabbed my phone and checked my daily readings and sure enough, they had the wrong recording on. I thought well now isn’t this strange and set my alarm (or so I thought ) for 7 AM so I could get the kids up and ready as we had to leave by 8:30 to get to Mass on time.

I woke up startled and sat up in bed and looked at my phone and it was now 7:45! GASP, the alarm I set for PM not AM!

I jumped out of bed as fast as I could without waking up my husband, running into the kid’s room to wake up my girls and my 14-year son and told them that I wanted to go to the 9 am mass and we that we had to walk because of what time Dad had come home and that we were running late!

As they woke up time seemed to just speed by and in my head it almost left like a mini battle cause part of me though oh why rush so much just go to the 11 am mass but  then I thought to wait we can still make it yes we will rush but we can make it and we know if  I wait till later it will rain and we wouldn’t make it so let’s just do it.

I rushed and grabbed the girls and told my son to catch up with us as he rides his bike. I quickly grabbed my running stroller to strap my youngest because although she could walk about at a comfortable pace, not this Sunday as we are racing to get there, as I tried to buckle her now that it the weather is colder I hadn’t used the running stroller for a bit and with her having a heavier coat I now had to change the straps so could be comfortable and buckled. I must say that at this point I just had to laugh because already it had been a day but it made me want to get to mass even more.

As I hurried along I kept asking my other daughter was she OK because she was (still is actually) getting better from a bad virus that was really making her asthma act up, There it was again a “whisper” why are you rushing it’s ok if you are a little late.  I thought no it’s not, then something told me hey why don’t you check the schedule and told my daughter to stop for a moment and processed to check my phone to see the time of mass and there it was mass was at 9:30 NOT 9 am.

As I told this to my daughter we both started laughing and as I turned I saw my son had finally caught up all out of breath asking what was so funny and I told him I’m so sorry I made you run out so quickly, mass isn’t until 9:30! He looked at me and laughed and said well at least now we will have the seats we want and be on time. We proceeded to get to church to a wonderful service.

So that is my little story as to how I started my Advent this year. The next day after I dropped my youngest at school I went into the church to get my little yearly Advent booklet but this year they had a smaller one with reflections and so  I decided to go to my local Catholic store whereas I was getting my little booklet saw this book.

If you know me then you know I love Padre Pio. I totally recommend this book as it has some amazing reflections and prayers each day.  If you get a chance to get this book let me know what you think.

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So Much To Be Thankful For

Hello all! If you are still following me along here then I can only say THANK YOU. I know I’ve neglected this little space so much.

I’ve have so much to share and I am so thankful. First off I am now a year older. I am 42 and so far  I have been so humbled and so thankful. We have a loving and faithful Lord.

 

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I must say I have seen and learned so much this year. I am not going to lie I’ve been worried, felt hopeless BUT never lost faith. The more I saw darker it felt that more I called to our Lord and said his words he said to us .

Matthew 7:7 Ask, and it will be given to you; search, and you will find; knock, and the door will be opened to you.

I just keep holding  on to this day in and day out. I am so thankful for the littlest of light that really shines so bright just when I need it.

I actually have been able to get a bit of work and am working towards being able to work more.

If you are signed up for my newsletter then yous should have gotten this and perhaps if not you perhaps you know someone who could use my services?

I’m in the exciting process of setting up my own Virtual Assistant business.
A Virtual Assistant is kind of like a freelance PA. Small business owners and consultants etc outsource all their necessary but time consuming (and often boring!) tasks like admin, competitor or client research, chasing invoices etc so they have more time to focus on running their business. Although many people still haven’t heard of the term,

Virtual Assistants are becoming increasingly popular as they save their clients time and money. They just hire the VA as and when they need them, they only pay for the hours they work and they don’t need to go through all the trouble of hiring an employee.

The core services I’m offering include email management, project coordination, admin
support, data entry, creating business documents and templates, creating social media content and support.

I’d be really appreciative if you could spread the word by forwarding my email on to anyone you know who might need a hand running their business.

If you have any questions or interests I would be more then happy to answer them so feel free to send me an email.
Well I have more to share later this week (YES I actually am going to be posting again this week)

I want to share how I am trying to go deeper this Advent. Are you doing anything different this Advent?

 

 

$10,003 Ask and You Shall Receive?

 

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Ask and you shall receive. Words that I have heard over and over again. I always seem to have a battle I admit with Jesus as he’s the one that says those words. I answer back but Lord I do ask and he answers yes and you get your answer. It’s never as we intend at times but our Lord does answer us.

With each worry or inquiry we have there will always be an answer to it. More than likely it’s not what we expected. One thing is for sure you have to put your effort into as well.

Hard work does pay off, pairing it with prayer is how it works. Your prayers can not be those that just come out of your mouth they need to come from your soul. Heartfelt and full of love.

Giving it up to our Lord truly and completely can be so hard. Trust me I know. The words come out but are you fully giving it up to our Lord? What I have learned it can take time. It can bring tears but once you release it to him you feel a peace. Although you may not get an answer that you had hoped in your prayers you will know he has heard your plea.

Our Lord is merciful and loving. Are you wondering what is up with the title of my post? Well that is what my family would need to move. (Yup I calculated to a tee)

It’s something that has been in our hearts as there are issues but never the less we are so blessed to have a house even with the issues at hand.  Right now not going to lie it’s really hard but again our Lord has been merciful to us and we have been able to do what we need to do for our kids.

As I watch my husband work so hard for us my heart aches. How I pray I could do more. I pray for guidance and say let thy will be done.

I know my prayers never go in vain. I have seen them answered one way or another time and time again. I give praise and each day I try to learn more about patience and trying to be silent so I can listen. It is so hard especially with how busy life can get but we have to take time to stop and listen.

Yet our hearts yearn and know this is something we must do  not only our well-being but our children.

I hear our Lord saying not yet and be patient even if it’s hard and tears come to my eyes because of what we are dealing with does make me sad.  Issues that need more than just a “band-aid” to fix in the house.

Never the less I am thankful and joyful. This house is a shell. What counts is the well-being of family and knowing the love we have for each other which is the most amazing of blessings.

If you could do me a favor. Let me know what are you thankful for and if you could say a prayer for us. For guidance and answers.

I am thankful for the chatter and conversations  I get to listen to as my kids greet one another arriving from school and come to me to tell me the other tales of the days. To be able to live these amazing moments. Worth more then anything.

What Mother Teresa Taught Me

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I always have loved Mother Teresa even before she became a saint. I remember hearing about her and when I saw her little tiny fragile self I must say I almost felt bad she was in her situation but to hear all she did always made me be in awe of her and the happiness that seems to ooze out of her was just so beautiful. Looking at her just makes you happy and want to hug her.

I’ve learned many lessons from her without even knowing that she had any connection. Like when I’ve been in a need I pray the Memorare and guess who would always pray it yup St. Mother Teresa.

I learned that even when we think we are in periods of darkness that is the time we shine the most. I must say I did laugh because I though well right now I must be so bright that I’ll need shades.

I’ve learned that doing the things we think are little everyday things the attitude we do them  is really a gift to someone even when we don’t think it so.

As I clean our home and feel like it’s unappreciated as there is hardly ever a thank you givenI have to stop and remember how we must do all things even the smallest of things with love. Me getting upset because I don’t get help or a thank you wouldn’t make anything better. I need to just use that for moments of reflection and in whatever I do, do it with the love I have for each person that I am doing it for. THAT is a hard really take but I’m slowly getting it (mind you yes V E R Y slowly but I’m coming along)

The evil one feeds off our doubts and that’s when we can get even more darkness. I have seen myself fall into the trap of questioning what is my purpose. What is my calling. When I stop and listen I hear the answer. THIS is my calling motherhood.

I always sit back and can say honestly if someone would have told 22 year old me that I would love being a SAHM I would say they were lying. That I would have more then one child I would have laughed. Now it’s the reason why I breathe it’s my happiness even when my youngest makes puddles from the milk she just asked to drink and now I have to clean up.

No matter the worries and concerns I have because of finances that have had me awake throughout the night I will give it to our Lord. Bills and debt can take a toll and make one so tired because of it. Yet with it I have learned I know that giving ALL my energy to it wil lnot do anything. Instead I have to plan out and calmly focus on how things can be tackled one at a time. I may not have the answers but one small bite at a time it can be taken care of as best of our abilities.

I am working hard in trying to figure out the part of bringing in income although right now it may seem bleek I have faith and am working hard something will come about.

Thank you St. Teresa for being there showing me that even when we think our actions are too small to be noticed they are the ones that do the biggest impact. Help me to trust Jesus as you did.

As the next weeks are uncertain I trust all will be OK. I will conuntine to pray and work as hard as I can.

 

Jesus I trust in you.

 

 

 

 

Dirty Dishes, Debt & Dancing

Early in the AM and the house is still quiet as I walk toward the darkness of the kitchen from it being a rainy Monday morning I can see the shadows of the dishes in the sink.

As my vision pans out I see more mess on the kitchen table and things that I’m sure what was suppose to be in the trash on the floor next to the can as it was a missed thrown shot & never picked up last night.

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As I stand there I take a deep breath. I can either start my day upset and angry and make my day equal with the weather that is happening outside or I can take a deep breath and pick up the trash and clear the kitchen and have a talk with my children when they get up.

Today I pick to do small things with love.(LOTS OF LOVE)  No matter how much I want to get upset what good will it at this moment.

As I finish clearing the kitchen & put the bucket so it will catch the rain that will fall from the hole that we have in the ceiling that our Landlord has yet to fix since we let him know months ago.  I look about and how things seem to be falling apart in this house but again there is nothing we can do at the moment and I stop and say thank you Lord for giving us a roof over our head even in this situation because it could be worse so much worse.

I instead did a bit of sweeping and more tidying up and as I turn my youngest is up asking for some toast to eat.  With the sweetest of smiles which makes me thankful and humble because I remember this time 4 yrs ago we had to go to the NICU to see that sweet face. Again my heart is humbled & I have another reason to be thankful.

As I go to get the toaster  I see one of the bills that are about to be due, which makes me go to my table to look at my notebook where I write down what the monthly bills. Debt looming about. Wondering how will we be able to do it all. Feeling myself about to enter the gloom and start a pity party but then I paused. Took a deep breath and prayed and said Lord I am thankful for what you give us.

What I have learned over the years is even on the cloudiest of days there is a reason to be thankful. Although I wish some things would be different I am thankful for what I did have. I will ask for grace today and pray for peace and put my headphones on and dance.

 

Running On A Hamster Wheel

That’s how I’ve been feeling as of late. I’m running at top speed but going no where. What’s up with that. I’m putting all my energy and trying to balance it all.

Isn’t it nuts though that no matter how much “I KNOW” it’s not my will. I am in a constant fight to be in control. Why do we do that? It is hard remembering I can not do it alone. Sure we can sit in the ditch of the “Why not me

That is just what the evil one wants us to do. Sit in the why me ditch. It is SO hard to get out of that ditch.

We sit there and question and give all the reasons why we should be doing that job, losing that extra 5 pounds, going on that vacation and so on.

While we question it all we forget there are arms out stretched reaching for us to help us get out of it.  We just have to look up.

Why is it so hard to let go of our control or is that just me? Today I will remember to pause and give it all to him once more. Doing so always brings me the peace. It will come as it always does. His love will cover me if I let him.

I know after this moment I’ll forget again and once more I’ll get on my knees once more and pray to help me quiet the noise and give me the peace I need.

Lord thank you for your graces and for always having your arms open to giving me the love and peace that I need just when I need it. Jesus I trust in you.

 

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