Up before the sun because my oldest girlie has one bad cough, & so my nurse hat has been on. Feeling drained as I have been up since 5 am for work during the weekend & not going to bed till past midnight can break a mama down.
Making sure the other kids are feed, getting things ready for the new week. So much busyness.
All I can say is Lord I am tired. From the corner of my eye I see the cross I gave my 15 yr old son last night when he arrived after staying in my in-laws.
His bag is on the floor his school bag in the other corner & there in the dresser. You Lord. I grabbed it and just kissed it. I escape as so many mamas to the bathroom. Crayon on the floor. I am tired oh look at that I have a cough too, but moms aren’t suppose to get sick right?
As I seat I think of all that I have to do this day with calling to say no school for my girls today I look at our Lord.
So beautiful just his silhouette. I think Lord I am tired, I think of this past Summer. I hear a voice inside saying see you can. I did it all for you so you can. Those are words so hard to swallow but even more to believe. Really Lord all for me?
You did this for me. You died for me? I think of how Advent is just a week away. I have a million things I want to do I have so many plans running in my head.
Once again I hear that voice. Be Calm. Why is that so hard.
Stop, I just want you to be with me. Lord help me to slow down. To focus on you and not all this busyness.
To remember to give up my woes to you. With my lips let me give you praise to show my kids so that they may want to come to your feet and praise too.
I hold this cross and can’t help but kiss it and thank him.
I look out the window the sun is rising. Lord I give you this day.
Help me to not rush the day but to pause in between & squeeze Praise to you throughout my day be it as I look for the lost socks, rushing a kid out the door, cleaning up messes left behind, work emails, and anything else that may come my way.
Help me remember what this Advent season is really to mean. What are you doing this Advent? I am joining Blessed is She : Bearing Light prayer devotional can’t wait to start. I also want to bible journal each day for 25 days and also will be doing the Jesse Tree with my kids from Do Small Things With Love which I really hope they will love as much as I have been doing it.
I would love to hear what you are doing. Let me know.
This is a little something I wrote last night… cause parenting is far from pretty roses and happy days.. They say it’s hard when they are little I think otherwise. I think the older they get the harder it gets..Here is a window to my parenting journey…
As I sit here past 1 am waiting on my oldest to get home. I think so this is what my
own mother must of felt. Anguish despair and well hopelessness. Waiting till I
came home while I basically had no care in the world just the knowledge that each
moment that I stayed out later then what I was told to would be a long
conversation as to how she was right and how I was not considerate of her feeling.
Here I sit in the couch in the living room while typing with a rosary on my lap
praying the Memorare until he gets home. I will get the face. No thanks mom nor I
love you as those I can’t remember the last time I heard one from him but I make
sure I say it as often as I can because I still till this day don’t recall it being said from
my own mother although I know she does.
Here I sit and pray to keep him safe. This world is so much different then when I
was growing up. Is this what my own mother thought. Here I sit and think Mama
Mary did Jesus give you this anguish? Sure we heard of him being lost for 3 days
although he answered well Hello where did you think I would be?
Everything I read that I say hmmm Yup that could so would have been me. Because
at 20 I knew best. I was considered an adult but I really wasn’t one at all.
Just as my son is doing now. I believed in God but only when I really wanted
something or needed something. I sit here and wonder is this what my mother felt.
With each moment that passes I kept his name on my lips and tell our Lord to keep
him safe. With each moment that passes I try to give him the freedom I know he
deserves after all he is a good kid but still the fear of wanting to keep our kids safe
wants to over take me and so I pray. Lord keep him safe and let him come home
Parenting will give your prayers wings as you give all you have with each word you
cry out to our Lord and Mama Mary especially her as she of all would understand what you are feeling.
I understand our children need to grow and that we are suppose to let go. Yet here
I sit and pray that I hear the keys so I know he’s safe and home. So that I may
give thanks to our Beloved Mother for helping me keep him safe.
Is this what my mother felt? Till this day at the age of 42 she actually does still
worry (dare I say even more?!) and will call me more then five times in a day. I know it’s her way of letting me know she cares and is worried but I got it no NOW I really do so hmm seriously let go. Ha..
I always said I wouldn’t do that and be over bearing so that my own kids can know I
trust them and I try my best to let them fly but I can’t help but worry and here I sit
after 1 am waiting.
Giving up my worry to our Lord and even though Padre Pio tells hey Ellie don’t
worry it’s hard. So I give my prayers wings and hope our Blessed Mother hears me
and our Lord Jesus protects him till he arrives home safe.
Then I get to do this tomorrow and not only for him but for his other siblings as
they are too growing and want to fly and explore outside the nest. I now know why
as we get older we get grey hair especially when you’re a parent…this right here…
I just hope one day if anyone of my children become parents they remember me as
I sat waiting on them.
Perhaps they will as me holding a rosary in one hand and typing something too and say now I know why my mother would pray and tell me to pray too because NOW I understand why my mom does too…
How many times have you said “God Bless you” to someone? Think about it for a second. It’s almost an automatic thing if someone sneezes am I right? Now think about what you are saying God Bless you.
Now, how about “I’ll pray for you” When you hear someone is going through something. Are you just saying it or will you really pray for that person? These are words that people say without really thinking for the most part. They may have the true intention to do so but do they really?
As of late with all that is going on with my family. We have heard lots of “We will pray for you” I feel sad to say some just think it’s something they should say.
It actually reminded me of how when our Pretty Girl passed I am pretty sure other parents who have lost a little one dread hearing the “I’m so sorry” I get it I do, we are humans and get uncomfortable when things that aren’t good happen and we have no clue what to do.
Right now with all that is going on with my family, I am so blessed to say that help has come from unexpected places that really have touched my family and me.
There has been lots of growing as well spiritly which I truly believe has been a good thing. Remember that post I talked about not getting cold in your faith well be careful what you say /or ask for because this has been a test of faith for sure. I have cried out truly and given completely.
The place I feel the safest is in the morning as I walk to mass just about every day. It is my refuge. It’s where I have been going and it’s how I have to start my day. It’s been my strength.
I must say that although we are here and my heart is so thankful I have learned so many lessons but most of all the lesson of surrender to our Lord has been the biggest.
Right now my prayers are for more opportunities for work be it at home or out I need to bring in more of an income. I am trusting in the Lord to guide me as to where and what my next steps should be.
As we settle in this new place I wake up with a thankful heart. I can not say how much my heart has changed as to how much I want to let our Lord in more than I had before.
This was one of the hardest Summers but it also was one of learning to truly let go and trust. so I admit I am still afraid that I know is just still “leftovers’ of well this traumatic Summer.
I am working on bringing this blog up to speed as I did post that I would have a Wordless Wednesday but all I’ve had is a postless Wednesday (oops) I also want to do start bring you reviews of small companies that I thing deserve to shine because after all small businesses really give the best customer service and attention to detail and I truly appriecate that.
If perhaps you are a small business (Catholic/Christain based) please feel free to contact me!
With that I say thank you for stopping by and I look forward to hearing from you and getting to know you better.
If you follow me on Instagram then you might have seen me announce that I was going to start up once again on my blog Wordless Wednesday. You Might be famlair to this or not but all it is, sharing a picture w/out words. Letting the image to tell your story.
If you want to join in I would love it! It’s super easy and a way to document your days.
With that being said here is my picture for the week. When I saw this rug I knew it was what we were going to need at our new home. As this has been the Summer of making Lemons into Lemonade.We are beyond thankful for the blessings and grace our Lord has shown us during this very hard time.
What will you remember from this week? Looking foward to next week as I already know what I want to share.
If you know my family and myself you know we love baseball so more or less when things happen around here we use “baseball terms” right now we are going to use one today.
Let’s just say we got hit really hard by one 99 per hour fast ball with what we got dealt with at the moment.
We are in the midst of being doubled down in pain but in the middle of it we have been seeing people come out of the dugout that we never thought would. Instead of who we might have expected others have offered a helping hand.
Life is sure good at showing and shining the light at truth especially in moments like this.
I also have been able to dig even deeper into holding on to our Lord. Although I felt my faith was better then it was in years right now this moment is putting all of it to the test.
Sure I have cried, but I cry out to our Lord. I make sure to pause and give him praise. Although we are in the middle of not knowing where we will be moving nor having the money for the move. Having to humble myself to basically “beg” for help HE is there and he will watch over us I trust and believe.
I truly believe that this is a learning and growing experience for us all. The whole thing we need to remember is that no matter what or where we end up the place will be a home because we are together.
Leaving w/a quote I heard today about Mother Teresa who said God doesn’t give us more then we can handle but I sure we wouldn’t trust me so much. (cause we have always find a reason to smile!)
Happy July guys… (can we get that pause button please!?!) At my home school is FINALLY done!! As I type I am a proud mama to a Junior in College (can I seriously be that old for one!?!?!) Sophorme in HS (again am I that old to have one of those!?!) a Sweet 6th grader and a Kindergartener who happened to turned 5 last week! (wait didn’t I JUST have her!?!?!)
I am beyond proud of them and pray our Lord countines to enlighten them and keeps guiding their steps not only education but in faith .. OK enough of the sappy mama stuff you know this also means no more alarms! YAY. Let’ say that again NO MORE ALARMS.. Sure my youngest will get up by 8 am but I will take it.
Which brings me to discussing why I wanted to post. Now that it’s Summer we might actually go into lazy mode. Which means you might not get up before the kids do to your morning prayer, or might not take that time during the day to pause for a reading, might not make it to church during the weekend because you are tired from the Saturday fun or think oh just an hour more and I’ll get up to only see that you are too late and get a call that there is a barbaque and forget to attend mass.
Summer can be a time where we figure oh it’s time for Fun but we have to remember we can not get luke warm or even cold in our faith just because we are busy with having fun.
Here are a few things I’m doing so I wouldn’t go into Summer Faith Mode.
Still set an alarm so you can pray in the quiet first thing in the morning.
Read a book that will enrich your faith (don’t let it be only your kids who are reading)
Attend one or two extra masses during the week. Check for adoration times.
Keep a Summer prayer Journal.
Start a new devotion. There are so many beautiful ones to take up.
I hope these few ideas will keep your heart on fire. I am trying to keep this list as well. My family is actually going through a very hard period so if you could keep us in your prayers I would be so thankful. That is another reason why I am holding on to this list and keeping my faith more on fire.
You can see HERE what is going. My family would be thankful for any prayers you could spare. We are nervous but we have more faith then Fear.
Not wanting to end this post with a downer I want to share that I will have a giveaway on my next post. As always thanks so much for stopping by. I’d love to hear how your Summer is going so leave me comment below.
Happy end of the Month (wasn’t it just January two minutes ago?) My family is super busy as it’s almost end of the school year which means tests, finals and figuring how we are gonna get next College year paid (that’s for another day) which is making this mama get greys hair but I trust in the Lord.
I was going off track there. What this post is really about is sharing some of the amazing small business that I have come across that I can not get enough of!
As I type this I just went and purchased another item from Nancy because Oh my gosh I love her Quiet books (go check it out I’ll have a post soon on my finished rosary one, as soon as it’s done) Each one is amazing and so talented and nope not being paid to say it I just really think each one is amazing go check them out!
As I just mentioned above Nancy has a sweet little story where she brings us some amazing projects that you can create. Besides her store she has one awesome podcast that I look forward to listening to.
I actually had contaced Jordan for a gift that the kids wanted to gift one of our favorite priests which was a drawing of his favorite saint. He is actually leaving soon as it’s time for a new assignment and oh wow did Jordan come through.
I was beyond amazed at how wonderful and detailed his work is. I also have purchased 2 other smaller of his works and just amazing again wonderful customer service. He’s putting some new work that I can’t wait to purchase!
Kathy is an amazing artist and a teacher and she provides some amazing work that I have used for my bible journaling which is so beautiful and easy. I love to check out her work on instagram as well. Check out her site and go to her blog so much awesomeness!
I ordered a personalized peg for myself of Padre Pio and I loved it so much and I was actually lucky enough to win a set of the Holy Family that my little girl love so much. I have to order a few more as it’s almost Summer and my little one really loves having her little “saint friends” as calls them. Her birthday is coming up so I know this will be one of her gifts.
I started to veil last year and although I had two veils that my mom bought for me I wante to get a shorter one that I could carry with me as there are times I am able to go to a near by parish that has adoration extra days that my parish doesn’t have. That is when I found the perfect veil with amazing detail and care when packaged and sent. Robin is amazing and is so talented. I am in love with all the veils she has avaiable.
Well that’s all from me as the kids home and it’s time to put my mama chef hat on. Do you have favorite small business you love? Let me know I’d love to check them out!