Running for Advent

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As I was getting ready for bed  I got the urge that I should write this post. I was super sleep but as I have learned our Lord whispers and gives us gentle taps what we do it is up to us and so I thought I’d have to share, and so this is is what happened to me this past Sunday.

On the weekend Hubby will come home from work at a good enough time that he gets some rest and we are able to go to mass together as a family but I got a text from him that they had requested for him to work a bit extra but he actually didn’t come home till almost dawn which meant change of plans, meaning the kids and I would have to go to church by the parish that is in walking distance.

I usually get up at 5:30 am on Sunday because I watch the Mass that is played at that time so I can listen to the reading and gospel because well let’s face it at mass with the kids it can get interesting giving one’s full attention.

As I turned on TV and Mass started  I hear them say today is the  2nd Sunday of Advent and I thought to wait, what!?! It’s the 1st Sunday of Advent and for a minute I said perhaps I heard wrong? So I grabbed my phone and checked my daily readings and sure enough, they had the wrong recording on. I thought well now isn’t this strange and set my alarm (or so I thought ) for 7 AM so I could get the kids up and ready as we had to leave by 8:30 to get to Mass on time.

I woke up startled and sat up in bed and looked at my phone and it was now 7:45! GASP, the alarm I set for PM not AM!

I jumped out of bed as fast as I could without waking up my husband, running into the kid’s room to wake up my girls and my 14-year son and told them that I wanted to go to the 9 am mass and we that we had to walk because of what time Dad had come home and that we were running late!

As they woke up time seemed to just speed by and in my head it almost left like a mini battle cause part of me though oh why rush so much just go to the 11 am mass but  then I thought to wait we can still make it yes we will rush but we can make it and we know if  I wait till later it will rain and we wouldn’t make it so let’s just do it.

I rushed and grabbed the girls and told my son to catch up with us as he rides his bike. I quickly grabbed my running stroller to strap my youngest because although she could walk about at a comfortable pace, not this Sunday as we are racing to get there, as I tried to buckle her now that it the weather is colder I hadn’t used the running stroller for a bit and with her having a heavier coat I now had to change the straps so could be comfortable and buckled. I must say that at this point I just had to laugh because already it had been a day but it made me want to get to mass even more.

As I hurried along I kept asking my other daughter was she OK because she was (still is actually) getting better from a bad virus that was really making her asthma act up, There it was again a “whisper” why are you rushing it’s ok if you are a little late.  I thought no it’s not, then something told me hey why don’t you check the schedule and told my daughter to stop for a moment and processed to check my phone to see the time of mass and there it was mass was at 9:30 NOT 9 am.

As I told this to my daughter we both started laughing and as I turned I saw my son had finally caught up all out of breath asking what was so funny and I told him I’m so sorry I made you run out so quickly, mass isn’t until 9:30! He looked at me and laughed and said well at least now we will have the seats we want and be on time. We proceeded to get to church to a wonderful service.

So that is my little story as to how I started my Advent this year. The next day after I dropped my youngest at school I went into the church to get my little yearly Advent booklet but this year they had a smaller one with reflections and so  I decided to go to my local Catholic store whereas I was getting my little booklet saw this book.

If you know me then you know I love Padre Pio. I totally recommend this book as it has some amazing reflections and prayers each day.  If you get a chance to get this book let me know what you think.

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So Much To Be Thankful For

Hello all! If you are still following me along here then I can only say THANK YOU. I know I’ve neglected this little space so much.

I’ve have so much to share and I am so thankful. First off I am now a year older. I am 42 and so far  I have been so humbled and so thankful. We have a loving and faithful Lord.

 

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I must say I have seen and learned so much this year. I am not going to lie I’ve been worried, felt hopeless BUT never lost faith. The more I saw darker it felt that more I called to our Lord and said his words he said to us .

Matthew 7:7 Ask, and it will be given to you; search, and you will find; knock, and the door will be opened to you.

I just keep holding  on to this day in and day out. I am so thankful for the littlest of light that really shines so bright just when I need it.

I actually have been able to get a bit of work and am working towards being able to work more.

If you are signed up for my newsletter then yous should have gotten this and perhaps if not you perhaps you know someone who could use my services?

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Well I have more to share later this week (YES I actually am going to be posting again this week)

I want to share how I am trying to go deeper this Advent. Are you doing anything different this Advent?

 

 

Dirty Dishes, Debt & Dancing

Early in the AM and the house is still quiet as I walk toward the darkness of the kitchen from it being a rainy Monday morning I can see the shadows of the dishes in the sink.

As my vision pans out I see more mess on the kitchen table and things that I’m sure what was suppose to be in the trash on the floor next to the can as it was a missed thrown shot & never picked up last night.

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As I stand there I take a deep breath. I can either start my day upset and angry and make my day equal with the weather that is happening outside or I can take a deep breath and pick up the trash and clear the kitchen and have a talk with my children when they get up.

Today I pick to do small things with love.(LOTS OF LOVE)  No matter how much I want to get upset what good will it at this moment.

As I finish clearing the kitchen & put the bucket so it will catch the rain that will fall from the hole that we have in the ceiling that our Landlord has yet to fix since we let him know months ago.  I look about and how things seem to be falling apart in this house but again there is nothing we can do at the moment and I stop and say thank you Lord for giving us a roof over our head even in this situation because it could be worse so much worse.

I instead did a bit of sweeping and more tidying up and as I turn my youngest is up asking for some toast to eat.  With the sweetest of smiles which makes me thankful and humble because I remember this time 4 yrs ago we had to go to the NICU to see that sweet face. Again my heart is humbled & I have another reason to be thankful.

As I go to get the toaster  I see one of the bills that are about to be due, which makes me go to my table to look at my notebook where I write down what the monthly bills. Debt looming about. Wondering how will we be able to do it all. Feeling myself about to enter the gloom and start a pity party but then I paused. Took a deep breath and prayed and said Lord I am thankful for what you give us.

What I have learned over the years is even on the cloudiest of days there is a reason to be thankful. Although I wish some things would be different I am thankful for what I did have. I will ask for grace today and pray for peace and put my headphones on and dance.

 

Running On A Hamster Wheel

That’s how I’ve been feeling as of late. I’m running at top speed but going no where. What’s up with that. I’m putting all my energy and trying to balance it all.

Isn’t it nuts though that no matter how much “I KNOW” it’s not my will. I am in a constant fight to be in control. Why do we do that? It is hard remembering I can not do it alone. Sure we can sit in the ditch of the “Why not me

That is just what the evil one wants us to do. Sit in the why me ditch. It is SO hard to get out of that ditch.

We sit there and question and give all the reasons why we should be doing that job, losing that extra 5 pounds, going on that vacation and so on.

While we question it all we forget there are arms out stretched reaching for us to help us get out of it.  We just have to look up.

Why is it so hard to let go of our control or is that just me? Today I will remember to pause and give it all to him once more. Doing so always brings me the peace. It will come as it always does. His love will cover me if I let him.

I know after this moment I’ll forget again and once more I’ll get on my knees once more and pray to help me quiet the noise and give me the peace I need.

Lord thank you for your graces and for always having your arms open to giving me the love and peace that I need just when I need it. Jesus I trust in you.

 

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OHH Living on a Prayer

Happy July everyone! Hope your having a good month. I must say praise God this month so far (sure it’s a few days in) has been kind to us.

A few things that were black clouds over our heads have cleared and being able to take a deep breath in such a long time almost dare I say was scary but I’ll take it!

Now comes a new situation (well it’s not really new but new to sharing more details) that I am personally trying to achieve. I’ve been dipping my fingers and toes to sharing my affiliate link to see if I can  bring in another source of income.

All 4 kids will be attending school come September so that means 3 out of the 4 will have tuitions for us to take care of.. EEK..  Hubby is amazing but I know this is a lot of stress on him so I’m on a mission to help.

I have been applying to jobs out of the home but funny how it seems I have the plague or something being I have not worked outside the home in 11 1/2 years.

So if you don’t mind I’m going to share a few spots that I am an affiliate for and if perhaps you need to do some shopping especially with Prime Day on Amazon coming I would appreciate it so much.

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Well I thank you so much for taking the time to read my post today. I hope you have a wonderful weekend!

 

 

 

 

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Am I really That Strong?

Sitting in prayer.Crying out. Am I this strong? They say our Lord doesn’t give us what we can’t handle. I sometimes really have to ask am I this strong Lord. I know this is just darkness trying engulf me and cover me in darkness. Making me feel as if I am so helpless.

This is when I pray more. I cry out more. I have no answers other then calling out to our Lord.  He says to knock and he will open, well I bang that door.

Right now we are  in a dark period. No answers yet even, with fear we face but I have hope. He will not leave us so I call out to him.

Jesus I trust in you. I will not be engulfed by all darkness. You will help us. We have been in darker periods.

My heart has hurt when I thought it couldn’t hurt anymore on the day our Pretty Girl went to our Lord. From that darkness I found grace and till this day I remember how our Lord has blessed us. How each time something wants to cover us. I hold on to my rosary and pray. For each tear that is shed there will be rejoicing as long as we hold on.

Mary of Jesus be a Mother to me now. Beloved Jesus I trust in you. Help me trust you more.

 

 

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Don’t Give Up Just Yet

This morning I felt I needed to write. The future is really unknown. I must admit a bit nervous, but right now all I can feel is the sense of “don’t give up just yet”

As I was getting the kids ready for school. I looked at them and my heart is overwhelmed. Each of them are so amazing and not just cause they are my kids (ha) but because of what they have given me. I have become stronger and smarter and open to the amazing gift that motherhood brings me each day.

There are days I am so tired and get angry because I look and see the mess that I cleaned up doubled in size but with it all i again keep hearing “don’t give up just yet”

What gives me the strength is Love. It is really that simple. Love in Faith. Love in Family. Love in what will come.

Right now this seem like they are in despair and worrisome but God will prevail because I know his Love is never ending.

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So today. I will not worry. I will pray and have hope and trust for I will not give up.