Squeeze Play

If you know my family and myself you know we love baseball so more or less when things happen around here we use “baseball terms” right now we are going to use one today.

Let’s just say we got hit really hard by one 99 per hour fast ball with what we got dealt with at the moment.

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We are in the midst of being doubled down in pain but in the middle of it we have been seeing people come out of the dugout that we never thought would.  Instead of who we might have expected others have offered a helping hand.

Life is sure good at showing and shining the light at truth especially in moments like this.

I also have been able to dig even deeper into holding on to our Lord. Although I felt my faith was better then it was in years right now this moment is putting all of it to the test.

Sure I have cried, but I cry out to our Lord. I make sure to pause and give him praise. Although we are in the middle of not knowing where we will be moving nor having the money for the move.  Having to humble myself to basically “beg” for help  HE is there and he will watch over us I trust and believe.

I truly believe that this is a learning and growing experience for us all. The whole thing we need to remember is that no matter what or where we end up the place will be a home because we are together.

Leaving w/a quote I heard today about Mother Teresa who said God doesn’t give us more then we can handle but I sure we wouldn’t trust me so much.  (cause we have always find a reason to smile!)

 

 

 

 

Hello Middle Of May

April was one hot mess. I had so many plans and to be honest for the most part it was very uneventful and just one big jumbo dizzy world wind.

Let’s just say I’m happy we are already half way through May! I am so ready for the end of the school year so I can catch my breathe.

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I actually had other plans for this month as well but it seems those plans wouldn’t be happening as I had wanted.

I did have one amazing thing happen that I really still am in awe did happen. I had a Blessed is She Bible Journaling group meet up.

I who gets tounge twisted and  am best in my own quiet little world went and stood in front of a group of ladies (mind you I was only expecting 9 and but I had 15 show up!) I was able to share a little piece of what I have been loving and I feel beyond blessed.

This past week it was pouring and we were set up for another meeting. To be honest I didn’t expect anyone to show up because of how bad the weather was but another set of ladies appeared and we were so into our gathering that we went over 1/2 hour.

To be honest we got some news as well that really has taken a toll which is we need to pay out of pocket for my oldest son’s tution so if you need any help with your social media and would like my Virtual Asstistant skills please let me know. I would be more then happy to help.

I also have been trying to get deeper into my prayers because of this different period. It’s been hard y’all but I have been praying more and more beause I trust in prayers.

I know that they are heard. We don’t get what we wish but our Lord will provide what we need and for the most part it isn’t what we expect.

In other news in my upcoming post I am going to share a few activities you can do with your little ones as school is almost over and I know the “I’m bored” blues can come on so quickly I have been gathering a few favorites around here.

Do you have fun activites you do with your kids that is budget friendly? I’m all ears as we need to pinch every penny we can around here!

 

 

 

 

It Is Done.

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This past week I’ve been able to go to mass everyday. This has been the first Holy Week that I’ve been able to do so since all my kids are bigger and it’s been more then I could ever image.

We are going to Easter Vigil tomorrow and my heart wants to burst of happiness and I am so humbled for the love our Savior has for us.

Let me tell you though this week had very crazy moments. Tears. LOTS of tears. Yet even with the hiccups my heart is full.

I don’t know what the future holds but I don’t know but I really think I am being moved to do more and I am going to let go (because you know we have to control it even though we say it with our mouths that God is in control we really mean well you know he’s in control but we will see if I really agree with it.) I’m not going to lie I am nervous. I have NO clue what to do but I’m really letting go. So here goes…

COME HOLY SPIRT COME.. LET THY WILL BE DONE… REALLY.

Oh and to start I’ve gotten the Instagram account that will be connected to this site. GULP..  Memories In These Stories

Well that’s all from me for now…

This little Space Is Going Away

 

 

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I’ve LOVED being able to express and share my voice. I feel as if even if I don’t know who if anyone is reading this blog I hope somewhere, somehow my words have helped or it showed they weren’t alone.

Sadly the domain of this page is coming to an end on the 10th of next month so it will be shut down as I don’t have the funds to keep it going for another year. I would have loved to keep it open.

I will keep posting until the 10th and then this blog will come to an end. God Bless all of you and remember no matter the darkest of periods there is always light. I know it so.

 

 

2018 : PURPOSE

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As I sit here might I say thinking where this and what I accomplished this past year and truth be told it was lots of worry and stress. Yes I am not going to say there were not happy moments and blessed moments but why do I feel as if I didn’t do all I could.

There has been one thing that I have asked plenty of times this past year. What is my purpose? Could it be a mid-life crisis that I’m finally after all these years in my 40’s I want to ask this question.

I sit back and say what has been my purpose?  What if I am no more what will they say I accomplished? Besides my children what have I really done in this life?

What is my purpose? Am I just going to be a person who ended up in debt and never was able to have their own or will do something with the time I have left? I want my children to be proud of me as I am of them.

This is why I push my children to go after their dreams and wants. Time waits for no one and then your time here is done.

I want to accomplish more next year. I want to be able to take a deep breath of true peace. Not to fear to take a deep breath and wonder what will happen next.

Beloved Lord, I ask you to guide me. I trust in you. What is your will for me?Lord use me. I need you. I love you with all that I am. I yearn for you always. I hunger to be with you in the quite.

Come Holy Spirt Come.  Quite all the noise that a surrounds me. Let me hear your voice oh Lord. What is the purpose you have for me?

Thus that is my word for 2018. So much noise and worry can get overwhelming. My goal is to learn to find those quiet times to want less material things and more spiritual things.

I actually keep having this yearning that I want to be able to hold a woman’s bible study as well as invite our parish priests to our home for a meal once a month. It’s a thought that also has been tapping me the whole year. I then think of the reality.

As truth be told I don’t have any of the resources for it. Perhaps I need to have more of what of St. Teresa of Calcutta as how she would pray without cessing and although she had those dark periods feeling as if our Lord was quite she still worked so hard to be closer and closer to our Lord.

So let this coming year really be filled with real purpose.

$10,003 Ask and You Shall Receive?

 

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Ask and you shall receive. Words that I have heard over and over again. I always seem to have a battle I admit with Jesus as he’s the one that says those words. I answer back but Lord I do ask and he answers yes and you get your answer. It’s never as we intend at times but our Lord does answer us.

With each worry or inquiry we have there will always be an answer to it. More than likely it’s not what we expected. One thing is for sure you have to put your effort into as well.

Hard work does pay off, pairing it with prayer is how it works. Your prayers can not be those that just come out of your mouth they need to come from your soul. Heartfelt and full of love.

Giving it up to our Lord truly and completely can be so hard. Trust me I know. The words come out but are you fully giving it up to our Lord? What I have learned it can take time. It can bring tears but once you release it to him you feel a peace. Although you may not get an answer that you had hoped in your prayers you will know he has heard your plea.

Our Lord is merciful and loving. Are you wondering what is up with the title of my post? Well that is what my family would need to move. (Yup I calculated to a tee)

It’s something that has been in our hearts as there are issues but never the less we are so blessed to have a house even with the issues at hand.  Right now not going to lie it’s really hard but again our Lord has been merciful to us and we have been able to do what we need to do for our kids.

As I watch my husband work so hard for us my heart aches. How I pray I could do more. I pray for guidance and say let thy will be done.

I know my prayers never go in vain. I have seen them answered one way or another time and time again. I give praise and each day I try to learn more about patience and trying to be silent so I can listen. It is so hard especially with how busy life can get but we have to take time to stop and listen.

Yet our hearts yearn and know this is something we must do  not only our well-being but our children.

I hear our Lord saying not yet and be patient even if it’s hard and tears come to my eyes because of what we are dealing with does make me sad.  Issues that need more than just a “band-aid” to fix in the house.

Never the less I am thankful and joyful. This house is a shell. What counts is the well-being of family and knowing the love we have for each other which is the most amazing of blessings.

If you could do me a favor. Let me know what are you thankful for and if you could say a prayer for us. For guidance and answers.

I am thankful for the chatter and conversations  I get to listen to as my kids greet one another arriving from school and come to me to tell me the other tales of the days. To be able to live these amazing moments. Worth more then anything.

What Mother Teresa Taught Me

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I always have loved Mother Teresa even before she became a saint. I remember hearing about her and when I saw her little tiny fragile self I must say I almost felt bad she was in her situation but to hear all she did always made me be in awe of her and the happiness that seems to ooze out of her was just so beautiful. Looking at her just makes you happy and want to hug her.

I’ve learned many lessons from her without even knowing that she had any connection. Like when I’ve been in a need I pray the Memorare and guess who would always pray it yup St. Mother Teresa.

I learned that even when we think we are in periods of darkness that is the time we shine the most. I must say I did laugh because I though well right now I must be so bright that I’ll need shades.

I’ve learned that doing the things we think are little everyday things the attitude we do them  is really a gift to someone even when we don’t think it so.

As I clean our home and feel like it’s unappreciated as there is hardly ever a thank you givenI have to stop and remember how we must do all things even the smallest of things with love. Me getting upset because I don’t get help or a thank you wouldn’t make anything better. I need to just use that for moments of reflection and in whatever I do, do it with the love I have for each person that I am doing it for. THAT is a hard really take but I’m slowly getting it (mind you yes V E R Y slowly but I’m coming along)

The evil one feeds off our doubts and that’s when we can get even more darkness. I have seen myself fall into the trap of questioning what is my purpose. What is my calling. When I stop and listen I hear the answer. THIS is my calling motherhood.

I always sit back and can say honestly if someone would have told 22 year old me that I would love being a SAHM I would say they were lying. That I would have more then one child I would have laughed. Now it’s the reason why I breathe it’s my happiness even when my youngest makes puddles from the milk she just asked to drink and now I have to clean up.

No matter the worries and concerns I have because of finances that have had me awake throughout the night I will give it to our Lord. Bills and debt can take a toll and make one so tired because of it. Yet with it I have learned I know that giving ALL my energy to it wil lnot do anything. Instead I have to plan out and calmly focus on how things can be tackled one at a time. I may not have the answers but one small bite at a time it can be taken care of as best of our abilities.

I am working hard in trying to figure out the part of bringing in income although right now it may seem bleek I have faith and am working hard something will come about.

Thank you St. Teresa for being there showing me that even when we think our actions are too small to be noticed they are the ones that do the biggest impact. Help me to trust Jesus as you did.

As the next weeks are uncertain I trust all will be OK. I will conuntine to pray and work as hard as I can.

 

Jesus I trust in you.