This little Space Is Going Away

 

 

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I’ve LOVED being able to express and share my voice. I feel as if even if I don’t know who if anyone is reading this blog I hope somewhere, somehow my words have helped or it showed they weren’t alone.

Sadly the domain of this page is coming to an end on the 10th of next month so it will be shut down as I don’t have the funds to keep it going for another year. I would have loved to keep it open.

I will keep posting until the 10th and then this blog will come to an end. God Bless all of you and remember no matter the darkest of periods there is always light. I know it so.

 

 

2018 : PURPOSE

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As I sit here might I say thinking where this and what I accomplished this past year and truth be told it was lots of worry and stress. Yes I am not going to say there were not happy moments and blessed moments but why do I feel as if I didn’t do all I could.

There has been one thing that I have asked plenty of times this past year. What is my purpose? Could it be a mid-life crisis that I’m finally after all these years in my 40’s I want to ask this question.

I sit back and say what has been my purpose?  What if I am no more what will they say I accomplished? Besides my children what have I really done in this life?

What is my purpose? Am I just going to be a person who ended up in debt and never was able to have their own or will do something with the time I have left? I want my children to be proud of me as I am of them.

This is why I push my children to go after their dreams and wants. Time waits for no one and then your time here is done.

I want to accomplish more next year. I want to be able to take a deep breath of true peace. Not to fear to take a deep breath and wonder what will happen next.

Beloved Lord, I ask you to guide me. I trust in you. What is your will for me?Lord use me. I need you. I love you with all that I am. I yearn for you always. I hunger to be with you in the quite.

Come Holy Spirt Come.  Quite all the noise that a surrounds me. Let me hear your voice oh Lord. What is the purpose you have for me?

Thus that is my word for 2018. So much noise and worry can get overwhelming. My goal is to learn to find those quiet times to want less material things and more spiritual things.

I actually keep having this yearning that I want to be able to hold a woman’s bible study as well as invite our parish priests to our home for a meal once a month. It’s a thought that also has been tapping me the whole year. I then think of the reality.

As truth be told I don’t have any of the resources for it. Perhaps I need to have more of what of St. Teresa of Calcutta as how she would pray without cessing and although she had those dark periods feeling as if our Lord was quite she still worked so hard to be closer and closer to our Lord.

So let this coming year really be filled with real purpose.

$10,003 Ask and You Shall Receive?

 

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Ask and you shall receive. Words that I have heard over and over again. I always seem to have a battle I admit with Jesus as he’s the one that says those words. I answer back but Lord I do ask and he answers yes and you get your answer. It’s never as we intend at times but our Lord does answer us.

With each worry or inquiry we have there will always be an answer to it. More than likely it’s not what we expected. One thing is for sure you have to put your effort into as well.

Hard work does pay off, pairing it with prayer is how it works. Your prayers can not be those that just come out of your mouth they need to come from your soul. Heartfelt and full of love.

Giving it up to our Lord truly and completely can be so hard. Trust me I know. The words come out but are you fully giving it up to our Lord? What I have learned it can take time. It can bring tears but once you release it to him you feel a peace. Although you may not get an answer that you had hoped in your prayers you will know he has heard your plea.

Our Lord is merciful and loving. Are you wondering what is up with the title of my post? Well that is what my family would need to move. (Yup I calculated to a tee)

It’s something that has been in our hearts as there are issues but never the less we are so blessed to have a house even with the issues at hand.  Right now not going to lie it’s really hard but again our Lord has been merciful to us and we have been able to do what we need to do for our kids.

As I watch my husband work so hard for us my heart aches. How I pray I could do more. I pray for guidance and say let thy will be done.

I know my prayers never go in vain. I have seen them answered one way or another time and time again. I give praise and each day I try to learn more about patience and trying to be silent so I can listen. It is so hard especially with how busy life can get but we have to take time to stop and listen.

Yet our hearts yearn and know this is something we must do  not only our well-being but our children.

I hear our Lord saying not yet and be patient even if it’s hard and tears come to my eyes because of what we are dealing with does make me sad.  Issues that need more than just a “band-aid” to fix in the house.

Never the less I am thankful and joyful. This house is a shell. What counts is the well-being of family and knowing the love we have for each other which is the most amazing of blessings.

If you could do me a favor. Let me know what are you thankful for and if you could say a prayer for us. For guidance and answers.

I am thankful for the chatter and conversations  I get to listen to as my kids greet one another arriving from school and come to me to tell me the other tales of the days. To be able to live these amazing moments. Worth more then anything.

What Mother Teresa Taught Me

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I always have loved Mother Teresa even before she became a saint. I remember hearing about her and when I saw her little tiny fragile self I must say I almost felt bad she was in her situation but to hear all she did always made me be in awe of her and the happiness that seems to ooze out of her was just so beautiful. Looking at her just makes you happy and want to hug her.

I’ve learned many lessons from her without even knowing that she had any connection. Like when I’ve been in a need I pray the Memorare and guess who would always pray it yup St. Mother Teresa.

I learned that even when we think we are in periods of darkness that is the time we shine the most. I must say I did laugh because I though well right now I must be so bright that I’ll need shades.

I’ve learned that doing the things we think are little everyday things the attitude we do them  is really a gift to someone even when we don’t think it so.

As I clean our home and feel like it’s unappreciated as there is hardly ever a thank you givenI have to stop and remember how we must do all things even the smallest of things with love. Me getting upset because I don’t get help or a thank you wouldn’t make anything better. I need to just use that for moments of reflection and in whatever I do, do it with the love I have for each person that I am doing it for. THAT is a hard really take but I’m slowly getting it (mind you yes V E R Y slowly but I’m coming along)

The evil one feeds off our doubts and that’s when we can get even more darkness. I have seen myself fall into the trap of questioning what is my purpose. What is my calling. When I stop and listen I hear the answer. THIS is my calling motherhood.

I always sit back and can say honestly if someone would have told 22 year old me that I would love being a SAHM I would say they were lying. That I would have more then one child I would have laughed. Now it’s the reason why I breathe it’s my happiness even when my youngest makes puddles from the milk she just asked to drink and now I have to clean up.

No matter the worries and concerns I have because of finances that have had me awake throughout the night I will give it to our Lord. Bills and debt can take a toll and make one so tired because of it. Yet with it I have learned I know that giving ALL my energy to it wil lnot do anything. Instead I have to plan out and calmly focus on how things can be tackled one at a time. I may not have the answers but one small bite at a time it can be taken care of as best of our abilities.

I am working hard in trying to figure out the part of bringing in income although right now it may seem bleek I have faith and am working hard something will come about.

Thank you St. Teresa for being there showing me that even when we think our actions are too small to be noticed they are the ones that do the biggest impact. Help me to trust Jesus as you did.

As the next weeks are uncertain I trust all will be OK. I will conuntine to pray and work as hard as I can.

 

Jesus I trust in you.

 

 

 

 

Running On A Hamster Wheel

That’s how I’ve been feeling as of late. I’m running at top speed but going no where. What’s up with that. I’m putting all my energy and trying to balance it all.

Isn’t it nuts though that no matter how much “I KNOW” it’s not my will. I am in a constant fight to be in control. Why do we do that? It is hard remembering I can not do it alone. Sure we can sit in the ditch of the “Why not me

That is just what the evil one wants us to do. Sit in the why me ditch. It is SO hard to get out of that ditch.

We sit there and question and give all the reasons why we should be doing that job, losing that extra 5 pounds, going on that vacation and so on.

While we question it all we forget there are arms out stretched reaching for us to help us get out of it.  We just have to look up.

Why is it so hard to let go of our control or is that just me? Today I will remember to pause and give it all to him once more. Doing so always brings me the peace. It will come as it always does. His love will cover me if I let him.

I know after this moment I’ll forget again and once more I’ll get on my knees once more and pray to help me quiet the noise and give me the peace I need.

Lord thank you for your graces and for always having your arms open to giving me the love and peace that I need just when I need it. Jesus I trust in you.

 

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Sink ok Or Swim?

I was up early thinking and praying. Thankful for the Grace we received at the end of last week.  I am still in awe and will be forever humbled. Now here we are today I got up and went and take care of some of the dark clouds that seem to be following us as of late. It felt so good to push them away.

I made sure to stop and give praise to our Lord even if it was a few minutes and he is listening to my plea there isn’t anything like going to his house and being able to bend your knees and say thank you.

Swimming once again felt like Nemo’s dad finally letting go and enjoying the coast it was awesome but then of course the worries stick in and I just about let myself go and remember hey I can’t swim!

Here I am holding on swim or sink that’s a daily decision we have to face. Whatever we are facing we can’t let negative vibes take us over.  We can’t let resistance win. We can’t.

Here I am with NO clue how we are going to make things happen when we have a huge hole of issues piling up. All I know I can do is pray and hold on to that raft that’s our Lord and pray that he shows us what to do.

drowningI will not lose faith. The power of prayers is more than I could explain so if you do read this I would be so thankful if you would say a prayer for me and my family.